The wholeness of being in alignment

I have spent such an incredibly long time feeling at odds with myself and my family. I hid my desire to be a full fledged homesteader and to walk this life. It started simply with a garden and chickens. That evolved into us getting ducks. Then we had to find a new home for the ducks due to a very sad and unfortunate change to our household.

I got very discouraged and lost heart. I felt like those dreams were unattainable...impossible. I carried the weight of desire with such depths I would suffer long and extreme bouts of depression because it felt like it would never happen for me. Shortly after, I then ditched the garden and found a new home for our chickens. I hung my hat up and let the depression consume me.

It was a terrible and long season. I made a lot of choices led by grief that continually crippled me. I tried to breed bunnies to sell for some income, but it quickly became too much too fast. It really made me throw in the towel on the whole idea of homesteading and we found all the bunnies new homes. I had completely lost all hope. My future felt as though it would forever be unfullifilling.

I do not know exactly what changed or even when it did, but one day I woke up and decided it was time to once again get chickens. The chickens opened the door to starting a garden. The garden was the key to acquiring goats. The goats led to researching local laws only to discover we are zoned for a hobby farm. That is when the turkeys, ducks, and quail happened. Now there are new beautiful garden beds and 2 new bee hives. The outdoors have become more sanctuary than the inside of our house. Which is how I have always felt it should be. I have always been more comfortable on a farm or in nature than in any structure. It is my calm. It is my refuge.

Once all these things were put I to place I began to notice my family started to follow my lead. That everyone was happier. Everyone became more fulfilled. There was never any need to hide my dreams. As it turns out, we all shared the same vision. We were all just not brave enough to proclaim and declare our dream. Yet we all shared the same one. It is with this I tell you to never be afraid to share your dreams. They will never become true with silence.